May 15, 2011, 2:14 pm
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so last night i made black bean burgers.
they were super tasty
and they are going to be even more so when i get to eat the leftovers today!
however a friend of mine wants me to give her the recipe…
thing is..
when i cook i tend to just throw stuff together.
all haphazardly
not really paying attention to what it is that i am doing.
so to the best of my knowledge
here is what i did

black bean burger noms….
you will need…
*half pound of uncooked black beans or two cans of black beans
(the only reason i did dry beans is cause its cheaper)
*cyanine pepper
*garlic (finely chopped)
*chili powder
*black pepper
*3/4 green bell pepper (med chopped)
*1/4 red onion (small chopped)
*1 to 2 eggs. (depends on how dry your mix is)
*brown deli mustard (anything but the yellow stuff…thats gross)
*1 cup and 1/2 bread crumbs (or cracker crumbs or rice/corn cereal (cereal is what i
*oil (does not matter what kind)

to cook black beans
pre soak-
*in a medium sauce pan place beans and enough water to cover the beans by about an
*add salt
*add cyanine pepper
*bring to a rapid boil
*take off heat
*cover and lets soak for at LEAST 2 hours
*place back in pan
* once again add water, salt, and cyanine pepper
*bring to rapid boil
*turn down to a low temp (i used about #2 on the dial)
*let cook for at LEAST 3 hours (the longer you cook the tender the beans
*drain and let cool

*in a medium sized bowl smash the black beans in to a paste like substance. all the
beans do not need to be smashed just a fair amount. the decision is yours! (its best
to use your hands for the smashing)
*add salt, black pepper, chili powder, cyanine pepper, cumin, garlic, bell pepper, onion,
egg, ketchup, mustard,and bread crumbs
*mix together untill combined
*form burgers. (i was able to make 4 the smaller the burger the more likey it will dry
out and fall apart)
*lightly coat the formed burgers in oil and place on cookie sheet.
*bake for about a half an hour at 375
( i was also roasting potatoes at the time so i was judging the doneness by the
potatoes. they actually took 45 min….but 30 should be good for the burgers. if
they dont look done you can keep them in longer. though more then 45 will dry
them out to much)

nom nom nomnom


its been awhile….
February 6, 2011, 11:00 pm
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yeah i know.
and im sorry.
but things have been pretty crazy recently.
work and all….
and the holidays…

anywho. i have been selling things on etsy…
and finished a second ski mask to sell on there..
and im about to start my doctor who scarf
while having a degrassi marathon
instead of watching the super bowl
(superb owl)
and then im watching glee

that is all….

OH! and for random things i find on the internet that i find neat
check out my tumblr

i just realized…..
October 25, 2010, 8:09 am
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that this past weekend was our last weekend in the apartment.
today is my last sunday.
tomorrow is the last monday.
this is the last week.
im scared
and sad.

im not sure how this is going to go.
not sure how i am going to be on my own again.
how its going to be with out my support system sleeping in the next room.
when i am freaking out
when i cant stop.
who is going to hug me.
to make it better.

hugs dont transfer well over the internet.

im going to miss this.

im cheating on you…
October 18, 2010, 8:51 am
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with tumblr
im sorry
you know it was bound to happen.
the platform is just neat for taking things off of the internet.

it does not mean i love you any less
you are still the blog site that i am going to come home to every night.
the place where i am going to post my
current works
(if i ever get around to making current work again)
i still love you wordpress

i just needed something more.
something fun and easy
and tumblr is it.
im just using it
a click and a post there.
no thought put into the content.

we can make this work.
i know we can.

October 14, 2010, 3:28 pm
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September 11, 2010, 4:23 am
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it never ceases to amaze me how one person voice can suddenly make everything alright again.
how he can make the tears of almost overwhelming sadness
turn into tears of laughter
and then into tears of longing
and tears of happiness

when the conversation is all said and done
and we have said our goodbyes
and the white noise from the phone is all we hear
and the line goes dead.

i am always a little blurry eyed
but always completely content

September 10, 2010, 11:44 pm
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im all alone tonight
lauren is not even here
im going to do an experiment
im 99.9% sure that if i was to not contact a single person for the rest of the night
that nobody would bother to contact me.
makes that feeling of being unimportant
easily forgotten
all the more apparent.

its a fucking friday night.
somebody in this city should want to do something with me
but no.
everyone has plans
other people who are more important to be with.
(this excludes lauren and anyone who does not live here besides one person)

i hate this

i dont want this experiment to succeed
but i know it will…..