im cheating on you…
October 18, 2010, 8:51 am
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with tumblr
im sorry
you know it was bound to happen.
the platform is just neat for taking things off of the internet.

it does not mean i love you any less
you are still the blog site that i am going to come home to every night.
the place where i am going to post my
current works
(if i ever get around to making current work again)
i still love you wordpress

i just needed something more.
something fun and easy
and tumblr is it.
im just using it
a click and a post there.
no thought put into the content.

we can make this work.
i know we can.


October 14, 2010, 3:28 pm
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it just made me giggle

november 1st
September 21, 2010, 7:32 pm
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that is a scarry date right now.
it its the date when i nolonger have a place to live.
and as of right now have two options
move in with friends into their house
(they have kids)
and be a burden for them once again.

or move back home
where i will be a burden
as well as being super unhappy.

i hate this.
i also hate the fact that i am somewhat resentfull at the moment
of the people who put me in this situation.
i should be happy for them
glad that they are taking the next step
that he grew some balls

but all i can think about is how i am fucked
how i cant affored to live by myself.
and how i know nobody to move in with where i would not
be a burden.

how was i soposed to do this?

September 16, 2010, 11:46 pm
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so i am in the process of redesigning my website
its less of a pain in the ass then it was last time
when i was creating all the code and stuff myself
thank you wordpress and graph paper press for your awesomeness

check out the work in progress here

September 11, 2010, 4:23 am
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it never ceases to amaze me how one person voice can suddenly make everything alright again.
how he can make the tears of almost overwhelming sadness
turn into tears of laughter
and then into tears of longing
and tears of happiness

when the conversation is all said and done
and we have said our goodbyes
and the white noise from the phone is all we hear
and the line goes dead.

i am always a little blurry eyed
but always completely content

September 10, 2010, 11:44 pm
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im all alone tonight
lauren is not even here
im going to do an experiment
im 99.9% sure that if i was to not contact a single person for the rest of the night
that nobody would bother to contact me.
makes that feeling of being unimportant
easily forgotten
all the more apparent.

its a fucking friday night.
somebody in this city should want to do something with me
but no.
everyone has plans
other people who are more important to be with.
(this excludes lauren and anyone who does not live here besides one person)

i hate this

i dont want this experiment to succeed
but i know it will…..

new favorite song
September 6, 2010, 3:40 am
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mumford and sons
after the storm
sigh no more