its over.
i survived.
though i do have my battle scars.
everything went fine acutally.
besided being sick for most of the week.
i could not have asked for a better group of campers to work with.
the two worst things that happend were some misscomunication errors
and tuesday nights camp out.
long story short.
it rained.
a tent started to leak.
and we had to move 7 male campers
to a shelter.
in the rain
at 12:30 pm
i was soaked from head to toe
and woke up the next moringing looking like a cast member of night of the living dead.
i still dont know where my sleeping bag is from all of that mess.
*ponders*
im a little nervous.
my stomach is a little upset.
and i feel as if i could puke.
its like the feeling you have right before something super life changeing is about to happen.
anticapation.
everything will be fine.
or at least that is what i am telling myslef right now.
we shale see how i feel about it latter tonight after taps.
so today was hard.
well not really.
the last hour has been.
we ended up watching the diving bell and the butterfly.
intesed of going on a canoe trip.
the movie is amazing.
cinamatophgry is beuituful.
and everything was fine up untill the part where they show how the main chacter ends up paralized.
i lost it then.
sitting in my bean bag on the floor i just started crying.
(about to start again now actually)
at first i dident fully realize what started the water works. untill i remember seeing that reaction before.
seeing a person go though a stroke.
remembering how scared i was.
remembering the EMT’s come up the front stairs.
remembering the hospital.
remembering what it was like with out her living at the house.
and remembering what happend later.
i dont like crying.
especially infront of people
ESPECIALLY infront of people i harldy know.
ropes training is over
today we actually had a group of campers come to the ropes course.
i realized that i could actually do it.
this wont be as bad as i thought that it would be.
in two weekes i will be back at camp.
in the mean time im in rockford.
then heading up to milwaukee.
im supper excited about hainging out with people before i go away for the summer.
and im nervous about what i will do when camp is over.
my arms hurt
my legs hurt
my feet hurt
my left hand hurts
and eventyally i feel a headach coming on
so far so good though
(besideds the list above)
the longer that i am here the more
it seems like i can do this
i have found a few people who i get along with.
and there are some that bug the hell out of me.
but that is expected.
i have already done things that i never thought that i would do.
